Just a simple thank u!

Everyone keeps asking me if Im alrite,
Wat am I suppose 2 tell em?
Tell em NO,Im not okay…and then wat?
will it make any differences?
So it's better 2 jz smile & say Im fine
Even though Im really dying on da inside.
Everyone sees who I appear 2b
But only a few who knows about da real me
They only see wat I choose 2 show,
as I have more hidden self than open self
There’s so many things behind my smile
They juz don’t know & dun even bother 2 know about em
I hate wen people ask me if Im okay
Becoz it keeps reminding me that Im not
What’s the point of smiling when you have no one to smile for?

I thought that I was all right,that I was moving on strongly
But then I realized I was losing myself deeply
and that proves that my thoughts were all wrong!
I can’t show my real feelings on da outside
But they’re tearing me up & killing me softly on da inside
It really sucks to feel this way
No one can help me…not even my friends
I juz need my life back together again
I wanna run from all my pain
And say goodbye to yesterday

U think u know my feelings
My struggles, my fears
when u r close with me
But it’s just like a diary
U have no idea…
I've got a smile on my face
a twinkle in my eye
but only the true will know
about how I really feel
and I thank em 4 being there 4me,
for trying 2 understand me,
for trying 2 know more about me,
for being there for me when Im in need,
I thank u!
and for those who are ignorant,
I thank u as well,
as u taught me the meaning of pain...
thank u,thank u and thank u!